You Want Me to Do What?!

Adam and I were sitting in Sunday School listening and paying attention as best we could with Caroline distracting me and me distracting Adam. I made an "excellent comment" (as the teacher stated) regarding the lesson. I felt so smart and so witty. The class ended and Adam and I began a little discussion amongst ourselves.

The next thing I know the 1st Counselor in the R.S. Presidency is walking toward me. She is a sweet old lady and I really didn't see her come our direction. She complemented Caroline on how cute she is and how adorable her smile is, etc. In hind sight, that was all to butter me up in order to ask me the question "will you teach the lesson in R.S. 2 weeks from today?" Excuse me?! You want me to do what?! There's NO WAY I can teach R.S. I am barely (and I mean barely) knowledgeable enough to get by on a primary level, let alone teach a bunch of women a lesson. What do I say? Where's my wittiness and my smartness now? It left me clear in the dust.

I replied by saying "Sure." This sweet sister turned to Adam and said something to the effect of "She answered so confidently and without fear. I bet she's going to do great!" I replied and said Check with me the Saturday before to see just how much fear I've got."

Fortunately, it is the start of a new year and one of my goals will come in handy as I study and prepare for teaching this lesson. Maybe that's why I got asked....the Lord knows what I want to accomplish and for this he is making me stretch out of my comfort zone. Last time I set any goals! The lesson is on The First Vision and is out of the new 2008-2009 manual Joseph Smith.

Some of you may think, "what's the big deal? It's the First Vision. It's a common story we've all heard, you should KNOW the material." To which I reply, in my experience it's always the common stories and information that we (okay, I) take forgranted until we (I) start studying the material that we find (I find) just how inadequately we (I) really know this information. The feelings of overwhelmed, inadequateness, being incapable, etc. have already crept into my sense of self and now I get to stew on it for another 2 weeks.

I guess I should be grateful for one thing....at least I don't have to speak in Sacrament Meeting. That's another whole can of worms I care not to go into.

I know you will all being very interested and waiting with baited breath to know how my lesson goes. I will let you all know with a post after this lesson has been taught just how well or not so well it goes. Maybe if I totally suck at teaching the lesson they'll NEVER ask me to teach again. Now there's a thought. I'll take it under consideration/advisement.

*******Note: I'm happy to take any suggestions any or all of you might have for the lesson.